Last night I finally tried doing the Civil War quests as a Stormcloak. And I’d never been more ashamed of myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love the Stormcloaks, maybe more than the Empire, but when it came down to fighting the people? I felt so horribly guilty. When I overtook Whiterun, I didn’t spend time killing the guards, I just ran straight up to Dragonsreach and went for Jarl Balgruuf. I felt so ashamed of myself when he talked to me. My character actually started backing away. Then in Solitude, I never killed the guards if I could help it. I’d shoot an arrow making them stumble, then I ran. It was cowardly but I couldn’t face them. When the time came to kill General Tullius, I didn’t kill him. I didn’t want to obey Ulfric with that. This wasn’t some hero story, this was a war and I respected the man to at least let him die an honorable death. I may be wrong and misdirected but it was what felt right to me. I plan to start another new game, I ended up abandoning my Khajiit character and I plan to follow Ralof this time but I still have no idea if I can go through being a Stormcloak again.
When I went to the Palace of the Kings as an Empire supporter, I went up into one of the rooms I found all the Stormcloak supporters that were supposedly important. It was an odd sight. They all hated me.